The party was great, I've been on a trip for Elle so I haven't seen everyone in awhile.
I couldn't stay at the part for too long though. Andrew wanted to talk to me. When I got home he was sitting on the couch with a weird look on his face....
 
xo
Mads
 
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I haven't been making sets, because, quite honestly, I didn't feel like it. Sometimes you just have a creative drain, and I wasn't feeling the fashion. :P But I'm back, (:

- xo youknowyouloveme.

Andrew through the door with me holding the presents. "January and Hannah," he smiled proudly pointing to Jan and Han.
"Yes!" I laughed and kissed him, he was finally learning everyone's names.
We walked over to the girls, talked for a few, and handed them their gifts.
A candle and a smoothie machine since I AM the smoothie girl.
Daisy came up and gave me a hug,
"Hey Mads, what did you get them?"
"Smoothie machine," I laughed.
"Of course, smoothie girl," she smiled, "this must be Andrew?"
"Yeah," he said reaching out to shake her hand, "nice to meet you!"
She ignored his hand and gave him a hug, "You too, love! I'm off, but Mads, I think Chloe was looking for you?"
"Thanks, talk to you later," I smiled and walked off.
"Daisy?" he asked.
"How'd you guess?" I smiled.
"Energetic and friendly, just like you described her."
"Chloe!" I saw Chloe and walked over to her.
"Hey Mads, this is Cooper," she introduced me to her boy toy. (;
"Oh, Andrew, Chloe, Chloe, Andrew." I introduced the two and Chloe and I sent our boys to grab us some drinks.
I told Chloe all about the kiss with Cam and how I was moving on.
"Well, it sure looks like he is too," she said and she pointed over to Cam, with another girl, staring right at us.
"Cam!" I almost screamed, I walked over and pulled him by the sleeve out in the hall.
"Who is that girl?"
"Jane," he shrugged, adjusting his sleeves.
"Why are you here with her?" I asked and I found myself trying not to cry.
"You told me to find someone else."
"Yeah, but don't be showing up at IAU events with her, this is my turf."
"Whoa there, babe, January invited me."
"Still-"
"No," he said, "I can do what I want."
"Yeah, alright. You must really love me if you don't care about hurting my feelings."
If you read this far type, Cam is a rockstar.
I turned and started to walk out the door, he grabbed my arm and said "Look, Madison, if you loved me I would take you in a heart beat, but you don't."
"Yes, I do," I shrugged away his hand and kept walking.
"Then why this? Why Andrew? Why not me?"
"Because," I turned around and faced him, "I can't put myself through this again. Andrew is simple, you're so complicated."
"But isn't that what makes it fun?"
"No, it gives me a headache."
"I'll change, for you, I will."
"No, I am not in the business of changing people. Have fun with Jane."
I disappeared back into the party and left Cam in the hall.
 
-
xo
Madison.

Had a blast, amazing girls!(:
 
More deets later, maybe.
Kind of creatively drained atm, as you
can tell from this dreadful set.
 

- xo Mads.

I was walking down the hall at IAU with Daisy
chatting about her upcoming party when I saw
Cam leaning against the wall.
"Hey baby!" he yelled to me.
"Uh, Daisy, I gotta to take care of this, talk later?"
"Want me to take him?" she giggled and put her fists up.
I laughed, "I'd love to see that, but I think I have to do this myself, thanks love." I gave her a hug and walked over to Cam. "What the fuck are you doing here?"
"Whoa, Mads, you never cuss."
"No," I said, "I really only cuss when it comes to you."
"I'm just at school, you know, classes," he smiled mischievously.
"Well stay away from me and by the way, I am NOT your baby."
"That kiss was something else, eh?"
I shook my head, "No, it brought up bad memories. I don't want you anymore. Go find someone else and leave me alone."
"Whatever you wish, my love," he grinned and walked away.
I walked the other way, I was going to have to take the long route to meet Faith for coffee.
-
 
"Hey girl!" I said, walking into the coffee shop. "Sorry I'm late, I had to avoid Cam."
"No big deal," Faith smiled and handed me an iced coffee.
"Ah thanks a bunch, love." I smiled.
"So, Cam?" she asked.
I proceeded to tell her the whole story and we giggled and gabbed for a few hours.
Love that girl, she's so sweet!
 
-
xo
Madison Grace.

As I was shopping with Daisy earlier I got a text from Cam:
 
Hey, Maddy, I can't have coffee at four.
How about drinks? Nine-ish? Text me back.
 
I sighed and texted back my agreement.
I'd probably be needing some shots talking to him.
Andrew left earlier today for a family thing, thank god. I don't think I'd have been able to lie about where I was going tonight. I put on a necklace, one that Cam had given me, but took it off, I didn't want any old feelings coming up. Grabbing my purse, I walked out the door and down to the bar a few blocks down.
 
I walked in and there Cam was, surrounded by girls, gulping down what must be at least his third scotch.
"Hey lovely!" he yelled, sounding surprisingly sober.
"Cam," I said coldly, kissing his cheek and sitting down.
"Here you are," he handed me a vodka shot, my drink of choice.
"Thanks," I smiled a little.
We proceeded to talk the whole night about his music, my internship, school, and eventually Andrew.
"So, is he treating you well?" he asked me.
"Yeah," I smiled, taking a sip of my third vodka, "really well, he's an amazing boy. I love him."
"As much as you loved me?" he winked.
"Well, Cam, I, it's different," I looked away from him.
He put his hand on my chin and turned my head towards his, "You're still as beautiful now as you were then, Maddy."
"T-thanks," I stuttered, he was doing that charming thing again.
He put his hand on my cheek, "I'm transferring. To IAU, I want to be closer to you."
"You're what?" I whispered.
"Transferring, the closer to you I am, the happier."
"Cam, you've got to be kidding. I KNOW you are involved with at least two other IAU girls, you can't love me this much."
"They're flings," he waved his other hand, "you're the real thing."
"No."
"Yes," he kissed me softly and I started crying.
"Get away from me!" I slapped his hand away and stood up.
"You can't stop me, I'm coming to IAU, like it or not."
"What the fuck is wrong with you? Are you trying to destroy my life? If you let something you love go and they don't come back, they weren't meant for you!" I shot down the rest of the vodka, grabbed my purse, and headed towards the door.
"Ah," his voice stopped me, "that's where you're wrong. We are meant to be together. And you know it."
I ran out of the bar and slammed the door on the way out.
[Say, Maddy got kissed, if you read this far]
 
I got home and lay on the bed crying for a while.
What was I going to do about this boy?
 
- xo
madison grace.

Ever since Mel ( I miss her!) took me to
Salon de Ning I've been obsessed with it.
So I got Steph & I a reservation there. Dinner was great. We talked about boys...
work, fashion, and everything.
She's such a great girl, I'm sure we'll be amazing friends.(:
 

- xo Madison

I heard a knock on my door and went to open it with my hair in a bun and my sweats on, I had just gotten up!
Aiden was standing outside the door, looking adorable, as always.
"MADS!" she laughed, "Late again?"
I gasped, "Ohmygod, I'msosorry, Lemmegogetdressed.God,Adien,
I'msuchafreak,
Ialwaysleepinginandbeinglate!"
I said in one big breath.
She laughed and sat on the couch, starting to flip through Elle magazines,
"No biggie, love. The stores will stay open."
I got dressed really fast and we were out the door.
Shopping was fantastic, Aiden is hilarious.
We discussed our whole out view on being Team James and she helped me with what I would say to Cameron tomorrow night at coffee. I bought her some stuff, part of her birthday present.
Love you!(:
 
- xo
Madison Grace.

I'm in a colorful mood,
I know this isn't very good.
I just felt like being random.
 
- xo
Youknowyouloveme.

So relaxing, perfect for me to unstress before my meeting with Cam.
OH MY GOSH. Girls, I had my phone turned off the entire time.
Such an accomplishment for me.
I'm never not texting/e-mailing/calling people.
I think I had withdrawal symptoms during the facials...my hands started twitching.
 
- xo Madison Grace.